Emotionally, yes.
Physically, no.
My greatest fear? Death like people dying.
My greatest desire?
Don't judge me, because it may indeed be to die.

I hope you're kissing somebody on the Brooklyn Bridge right now.

Some different writing

remember that time when i was infinitely happy and used cliches.and remember when you did too.
I used to play with your mind like you used to play with your baby brother.
I
          was
                          so
                                                                                    ....superior
and reluctant to admit it and in charge.
I think that really
I think that maybe
I think that even if
I think that I know
I think I'm sorry
I think that
I think
I
I
I
I
.
Okay I don't think I act I'm impulsive I'm emotional I'm unstable
O.K. I ruined it but I think I ruined it a long time ago.
Oh Kay maybe this is eccentric and weird and awful but maybe this is how I'm feeling and maybe I'm feeling unbroken and broken at the same time and somehow the cracks make me whole.
Okay maybe I'm stuck in the memories but O.K. I think its repression so just ignore it and let it be.

I have a wild imagination and I'm not good at hiding it.
Maybe I have schizophrenia because I'm carelessly wandering into alternate realities where you are always,
and he is always, and we are always.
Always.

I'm too afraid, I'm too scared, I'm too frightened, I'm too excited.
Excited?

Cheater cheater
wears a wife beater
pumpkin eater
Peter

That rhymed but you never cheated on me because its impossible to cheat on a test that you never prepared for or maybe for a test that you never even took?

maybe the reason why i am stuck is because i never tried to get out.maybe now i am ready to catch trout.
Trout?

Seriously though

I moved on a long time ago but it took my head a long time to catch up to my heart.
I have low blood circulation.