Sunday, September 16, 2012

boys and collisions

In Driver's Education, we always learned that it was never an 'accident'.
It was always a collision.
If it wasn't your fault, why are you cited?
Brakes screaming, adrenaline rushing like never before,
I knew it was coming.
"Let's get off the road."
Here's to the safety of everyone, here's to seatbelts, here's to spiritual guidance.
I did my scripture study for 1 hour on Sunday, like the stake president asked.
I read my New Era, like the stake president asked.
I went to the temple 3 times in a week and cried the day I couldn't go.
"Why is this happening?"
"Sometimes bad things happen to good people."
"Why is everyone yelling?"
"Sometimes you have to deal with the truth."
"Why didn't I get asked to homecoming?"
"Sometimes that isn't what matters."




Glass everywhere, radiator fluid. No airbags.
No airbags?
"Is anyone hurt? Is anyone hurt."
Nobody's hurt. OK.
Calling, calling.
"Were you crying? Was it scary?"
No.
No.
Why is he here? Why is he here?
"I'm just happy you weren't hurt."
"Why?"
"Why would you say that?"
"Because."
"Why didn't I get asked to homecoming?"
"Because."
Bones aching, head spinning, responsibility.
"I have to do this."
Filling out statements. More and more statements.
How fast were you going?
I don't know. Slow.
"I wish I was homecoming queen."
"Sometimes we can't get what we wish for."
"This has been the worst week."
"Sometimes bad things happen to good people."
"What about the bad people? What happens to them?"
"Sometimes good things happen to bad people."

Saturday, September 01, 2012